Hilal's Notes

Understanding in-depth of anyone would be understanding, why he does something the way he does it. The real feeling what he is going through. Joy and Happiness one feels when one does it. The fear or emptiness within the person, are things we need to identify to understand the person.

Well in general we tend to label people with what they do. We assume the person is this or that without imagining the real scenario behind. Well in our community everyone seems to be a psychoanalyst. Everyone seems to understand the other by something one has done once upon a time. Most of the times the specific something would be over heard in a conversation which might not be true.

Since I have started working in this community with my knowledge I have been labeled many times. Sometimes I am too proud and other time I may be too stiff in decision making and in front of me people like the school attendant, can advise me on how I shall perform in my job.

The funny thing is all the others know better than me of what I am. In one sense I feel grateful because I have so much of opinions which I can have a look and see the truth behind it. Thinking positive of every critic I get is what is best I was able to cope till date.

Like for the comment of “being too proud” I analyzed the phrase and why they have said it over and over again I come to a conclusion that I am too busy with my work. I don’t have time to think of what others do and can remark anyone on their behavior other than the people who works with me. Mostly these comments are made by females I thought it might be because I don’t look at them.

To over come the proud discipline of mine I only have one solution worked out. I don’t know if it works but I don’t hear the same comment repeating or I people have not started commenting on my change. The change I brought in was slow down my pace from my regular to a lower speed, and smile to everyone I see around. I thought a smile can make the change. I think still people will have more to say. Let’s see how much I can change positive as I hear more comments.

In reality that does not solve the real problem we have. The real problem is we all judge people by their covers not the content.

How many of us wonder why we are here in the wide world called earth. Well I have been thinking about this like forever. Since I have started thinking for myself. Some says that we are sent here to pray for god (creator) for the mistakes that has been happened from our mother eve (Hawwa). Well the others say just to live and die. So many variations are there. I try to figure out if there is any logic out of anywhere if I can find out why? May be this is my mission of life or this is the route that I can reach to my life’s soul purpose. I still am searching and I am sure light would be there somewhere within my life span. This is just a cry inside me, but I wonder how many does think the way I think?

When I ask the question to me, I feel that I am here with the ability within me to complete my task in this world. Since the world keeps on rotating by days and nights we see time passes away. Every book of religion in the world says to be prepared and be good to the mankind. There is a conclusion somewhere and you will return to the creator where you would be asked if you have obeyed the creator.

I am not a person who is so much into religion but I feel this is where I see a purpose which is different from most of the people. I do not know if I am exact but I feel my thinking is logical.

I see people all around with missions to live with the goals within their hands. Money richness and needs in front of them. I see people working for greed all around. I see people killing each other for materialistic reasons. I see life for humans seems to be so materialistic where they don’t see what is actually bestowed to them.

The natures balance, if anyone could stop and learn from it, I feel the presence of god everywhere. I feel the connection between all the things around. I see the people react because of ignorance. The ignorance which, we are is killing ourselves. I don’t see anyone different from the other. I feel the people do not care more than what they need at the instance. In other words people do not have the freedom to think for some reason.

I can see people setting their life’s purpose in the name of god, people, and the nature for their own benefits. The life that one lives is been sold for ones own greed and selfishness.

I am not criticizing anyone, I just writing down what I see as I see it. Where I can believe this world does not have a rhythm of protecting anyone. Is it why we are here on this earth?

The earth it self has a life. The earth it self vibrates energy. Have anyone thought about if we don’t nurture the earth and its balance we can live on it. Right we hear about CFC and ozone layer. We develop protocols to follow. We talk about humanity while we kill people within wars. We show just within injustice for our power hungry reasons. I do not see almost anyone who does things because he needs to nurture the human kind. In the name of supporting the life’s of vulnerable ones play mind game to cultivate the political agendas.

To conclude I shall say that you will live even if you do not have agendas to portray, but just to support the earth or human kind. You will flourish more and better if you are to live a simple transparent life and live in the world with a kind heart to humans and the earth.

.. i am at my home... in male'.... nd it s like at night time... nd i am in da sitting room...looking out side a glass window... suddenly i see this shadow..lurking out of some where.. nd i knw it s coming towards me.

.. i am shivering... nd damn so scared..i grab mom..nd try to make her see it..bt she cannot..nd i see it comin near to me.... suddenly it s like creeping insede da hous.... frm da window...nd thats where mom s see s it..nd she shows it to others ..........

nd well .. it come s in.. well half of it.. get s inside.. da house.. nd .. am like .. u know.. damn frightened..cos i knew its after me

then i wake up..nd again fall asleep nd see s the continuation of da dream

i see am walking .. nd see two path ways ahead of me... am with Mal oo a lil kid.. ingey.. nd i see this path way .. which is straight.. .. nd few ppl is opting da path way..... nd da path way is really easy.. cos.. u just have to walk straight to go there

nd da other path way is a mountain.. i see like ascending mountain.. with so many layers... nd wen i look at da top..its dark..bt i noticed dat as da seasons.. (like summer, spring..etc)...changes..... a layer of da mountain gets cleared... nd bright ..

nd a lot of ppl is choosing this path way.....

even if it s so difficult .. to climb on lots of ppl chooses this path way.. nd i see a new born baby climbing from da very below .... which was weird.. bt nice ..

well i wanted to try out da easy path way.. nd wen i was j about to i feel dat someone is right there next to me..nd da feel was nt right..it was soo soo soo scary

nd wen i turned other side... well.. da shadow... was there

nd all i know was that .. i know dat shadow... even if it does nt have a face... even if its scary..nd hairy nd all.. even if it s soo pitch black

i knew da shadow.. which scared me moew

more

soo.. i screams. ...nd turns nd runs..

which direction..i do nt know nd i wake up 2.30...excatly...

-----------------Anyone can interpret this dream please comment......