Hilal's Notes

Understanding in-depth of anyone would be understanding, why he does something the way he does it. The real feeling what he is going through. Joy and Happiness one feels when one does it. The fear or emptiness within the person, are things we need to identify to understand the person.

Well in general we tend to label people with what they do. We assume the person is this or that without imagining the real scenario behind. Well in our community everyone seems to be a psychoanalyst. Everyone seems to understand the other by something one has done once upon a time. Most of the times the specific something would be over heard in a conversation which might not be true.

Since I have started working in this community with my knowledge I have been labeled many times. Sometimes I am too proud and other time I may be too stiff in decision making and in front of me people like the school attendant, can advise me on how I shall perform in my job.

The funny thing is all the others know better than me of what I am. In one sense I feel grateful because I have so much of opinions which I can have a look and see the truth behind it. Thinking positive of every critic I get is what is best I was able to cope till date.

Like for the comment of “being too proud” I analyzed the phrase and why they have said it over and over again I come to a conclusion that I am too busy with my work. I don’t have time to think of what others do and can remark anyone on their behavior other than the people who works with me. Mostly these comments are made by females I thought it might be because I don’t look at them.

To over come the proud discipline of mine I only have one solution worked out. I don’t know if it works but I don’t hear the same comment repeating or I people have not started commenting on my change. The change I brought in was slow down my pace from my regular to a lower speed, and smile to everyone I see around. I thought a smile can make the change. I think still people will have more to say. Let’s see how much I can change positive as I hear more comments.

In reality that does not solve the real problem we have. The real problem is we all judge people by their covers not the content.